04 merdeka and independence

merdeka and independence..

both means the same...
just a matter of language that's making it different...
and of course spelling and pronounciation...

but, despite of their difference,
this day should be remembered by everyone in this country (malaysia)...
sbb,hari nilah, bumi malaysia kita bebas dr jajahan,taklukan,pemerintahan org luar...

kita sepatutnya bersyukur dgn negara kita,
yang bebas drpd perang sekarang...
yang bebas penjajah sekarang...

but, still...
ada yang xbersyukur...
siape yg makan cili pasti terasa pedasnya..

dengan kesempatan ini, me wanna wish my country a very big happy 52nd independence day!!!

1 MALAYSIA!!

p/s:saya bangga jadi anak malaysia!!

03 monday blues

everybody hates monday...
i know...
i hate monday's too...
so, i'm no different from everbody else...

but,
why do i feel so different right now?
why do i feel i'm all alone?
why do i feel that i have no friends?
why do i feel so insecure?
why do i feel so sad these few days?

*silence*

i need to step up...

but,
i can't...

i'm scared...
i'm shy...
i'm mad at myself...
i'm just not in the mood...

so many things are racing in my mind..
i have to get things in order...
and FAST..
really FAST i mean...
if not,
i'm going to fall...
and it will fall deeper by the minutes...

so wake up pillowhead!!
you can do it!!

*go miss pillowhead*

02 a new day

hari ini hari ahad...

pasti ada yg tgh berehat di rumah...
pasti ada yg mseh mmbute...
pasti ada yg plan nak berbuka diluar bersama famili...
pasti ada yg berbunga hati sbb dpt shopping raya...
pasti ada yg tgh dating dgn sang arjuna masing2...
pasti ada yg tgh online sekarang...
pasti ada yg baru nak mandi...
pasti ada yg tgh layan muvie skrng...

seberapa bnyk pasti,
aku tetap harapkan korng semua selamat dimana jua korng berada...
selamat berpuasa...

01 fresh start

i hate the feeling of being alone when you're actually not...
seems like what you have is nothing...
doesn't mean anything to you...
until you finally realized that you have lost it..

I've been saying this for quite sometime now...
I'm saying it to the people around me...
little did i know,...
now, i am one of them...

i now realized what I've done was wrong...
i was lucky that haven't lost it, but i almost did...
this is all because of my selfish behavior...
i wish i can turn back time..
but now, it's to late..
i just have to face the consequences for the choice that i had made..

i wish i had made the right choice...
no, the right choice now is to balance between the 2...
don't get me wrong, i'm not juggling two men at the same time...
right now, i have to balance between my friends and my love...
both are equally important to me... (of course family is the most important)
without both of them, i'm not who i am today...
so, i really want to thank both parties for all they had done for me and me realized..

and i'm glad i got to wake earlier to the real world..
seriously, BALANCE!!
or in other words, justice...