03 monday blues

everybody hates monday...
i know...
i hate monday's too...
so, i'm no different from everbody else...

but,
why do i feel so different right now?
why do i feel i'm all alone?
why do i feel that i have no friends?
why do i feel so insecure?
why do i feel so sad these few days?

*silence*

i need to step up...

but,
i can't...

i'm scared...
i'm shy...
i'm mad at myself...
i'm just not in the mood...

so many things are racing in my mind..
i have to get things in order...
and FAST..
really FAST i mean...
if not,
i'm going to fall...
and it will fall deeper by the minutes...

so wake up pillowhead!!
you can do it!!

*go miss pillowhead*